13/90: seismically |-ik(ə)lē| |ˈsaɪzmək(ə)li|

It’s taken being still and grounded in one place for over week, to have any mental clarity or spacial perspective to write. Posting photos ain’t the same as scratching the writing itch. When I wrote at my (much-missed) table at home, I felt cloistered and delusion-ally private. Being out here in the world, writing anything with depth is way more open and exposed.

What a journey. Covering so many miles (internal = external), meeting so many people, falling in love with I’ve lost-count-of how many views & places - experiencing such profound beauty & change during retreats & festivals – it’s about time I got quiet & integrated. Some things I’d anticipated. Others I overlooked – changing 1 thing at a time is an upheaval – leaving home, work/lifestyle, family/friends, community & country – that’s a whole lotta letting go. It’s 13 weeks since I handed over the keys to my last home. I’m told that the brain takes 90 days to fully detox from any situation = that day 90 is an armageddon, the precipice of my new reality. The words paradigm, abundance & manifestation are overused enough to be losing their freshness to me. My 13 weeks/90 day moment is here and now. And I literally feel old skins slipping away. Primarily new ways of creating beaneries/green tickets, learning to ask for what I want (despite the fear of laughter/rejection), not needing to feel anchored or tied anywhere, yet wanting a base.

  

So, how best to be clear about where I’m at? Being. I’ve stopped trying to make plans – they have a way of changing. The best thing I can do is to get out of the way and to stop should-ing myself. Something has been driving me, to keep going, keep moving, keep creating – pretty much all of my life I guess. I haven’t had to ‘work it’ as much as others around me, but the survival instinct for those without a ‘career path or pension plan’ is unique; the work ethic & tools we learn because we think we must. Allowing myself a little time for integration right now (and how long that will take?) took other people changing their plans so I ended up stuck/stranded here in Sedona. Or that’s how it felt until I breathed into it and looked around me. Grateful now to be embraced by this town which is known to either wrap you up or spit you out. Sleeping outside in the open air & waking up truly happy just to be me. This whole trip has happened through a strange chain of events – at each step I said YES because I couldn’t think of any reason to say no. I loved my life, my home, my work & community – so I wasn’t running away or burning bridges. So since day 1 I’ve trusted (or held that intention) that there was a reason I was here, a bigger plan and purpose & that it wasn’t my business to know what until it was obvious.

I’ve been reluctant to write the inner struggles of staying sane on the road, lest I seem ungrateful for this extraordinary experience. I thrive best on plenty of time to myself, quiet and space. This I underestimated & didn’t carve out enough time to myself since leaving New York. Feeling pressures of finance or visa restrictions meant I kept moving. Being around other people continually means being ON and not giving myself the silence I need to regroup and ground. Which gets me thinking, which ‘me‘ has been showing up? Since getting vortexed this time around in Sedona I’ve rested, slept and sat with time – me is back.

I miss my Top Five back home, who get me – in a way I’m familiar with. I miss the way they know and see me, understand me & laugh at me. Raw family here are witnessing me in a very different context & whilst that gives me space to recreate if needs be, I’m conscious of the roles I played in my old daily life – as therapist, expert, professional, earner, partner, sister etc. If all of that is truly left behind (the threads of joyous contact of facebook notwithstanding) including our social capital (thank you Seoul) what and who do we recreate? More recently I’ve met a person or two who bring out something in me I’ve never seen before. A mix of the old and the new – I’m really really enjoying the discovery.

Living amidst lightbeings whose daily experience of human experience is so vastly different than my citified survival techniques, is slowly cracking open this flower. We truly learn from the children. I filmed Jennifer Warr of Cafe Bliss yesterday. She is one of many extraordinary people I’ve met on this journey – she exemplifies a purity and connectedness which is hard for me to fathom. She spoke of the time she did a 9 day water fast & how pivotal it was in changing her life. Sitting behind the camera, this White World Bridger is always questioning how “Tammy in Ohio” (excuse me all Tammys in Ohio) will receive words which are seem foreign. I pointed out to Jen how few people take the time to hang out alone by a river and drink water; how few people would schedule 9 days into their annual alloted vacation time, or even how rare is to have 9 days stretching ahead with no place to be, or no one expecting them. She giggled. She’s the smart one. Today I am such a person. How will I spend the next 9 days? At this point I have no idea what happens next. I’m not attached to any delicious possibilities which may actualize. I’m know that all I have to do is show up & the rest writes itself. I have no flights booked, no dates arranged. I am open…

Jasmine Jivaraw Scalesciani’s new book does like it says on the tin. Accessible to newcomers to raw and veterans alike, with fresh info and wise advice she’s pretty much got it covered. Hmm methinks it’s gift buying season sometime soon? Claire Maguire’s new site The Raw Bombshell kicks some rawsome ass!

 

Pure Joy in Sacramento

Richard ‘Synergy Chef’ Hemsley is easily one of my top 5 favourite chefs. My palette remains ruined for ‘mortal’ food for a few days yet.. His is the only raw cafe in Sacramento – located in a government building – the majority of his local clientele are new to super living foods. This is just the start – he is about to explode in his neighborhood - we await with baited hunger.. ❤

Pure Joy Cafe 
(916) 370-6100
450 N Street 
Sacramento, CA 95814

             

 

lazy chocolate planet

I’ve hung up my chocolate spoon. Strangely there was more anxiety around changing my chocolate-for-breakfast habit in the run up to the final morning, than there has been since the cupboard was bare. [I'm missing my table fiercely - much more than chocolate]. For a while now I’ve been looking at yellow waxy cacao butter & knowing it was time to change/cut down. So I’m making chocolate milk & feeling great on it. Usually I make mega-thick superfood loaded smoothies, so a light milk is a welcome discovery. You could blend in soaked chia seeds for added bulk. It’s a 3 stage process: 

1. Tea: steep over night Pau D’Arco, Cats Claw, Cinnamon Quill, Goji Berries, Star Anise, Cardamon (whatever else pleases) You can use your fave tea bag instead – choco or chai would work well. Mate too for extra oomph!
2. Milk: strain into Blender: add a scoop of hemp seeds, sesame seeds (they balance well together), 1 T milk thistle seeds, 1 empty vanilla pod. Pepper corns are my favourite this week. Blend then squeeze through nut milk bag.
3. Chocolate: pour the milk back into the blender & add raw cacao powder, mesquite (or maca), cayenne (or Bhut Jolokia if you’re a Chili Monster) salt + raw honey (or stevia). Enjoy w/ abandon.

 

Laura Bruno graciously sent me her latest book The Lazy Raw Foodists Guide – she cunningly ties together all the many subjects of interest to healthy-living & raw-loving peeps – with many recipes from celebrated chefs around the world. It’s a fantastic intro for newbies, and great for lazy peeps like myself.. Of course when offered free samples of Conscious Chocolate I had a field day – Hayley’s Planet Organic Raw & Living food event on Thursday was great – lovely to see so many New Horizons! faces again & meet new faces from Raw Fu..

        

 

dyscalculia protaxtinating

Sitting here struggling with digits [brain freeze] & procrastinating my taxes I’m soaking up & LOVING Bunny Berry - laughing out loud & relishing her hilarious breath-of-freshair kookiness. Winks to my favourite cheerleader, Audry for the nod xox

Update: It’s the following morning. I’m watching Bunny Berry’s videos – in order. There must be some Virgo in me somewhere? I will NOT skip to the end… Hey, I don’t expect anyone else to do this – number crunching aversion = extreme diversionary tactics. So here are a few which are essential viewing: Day Twenty: Day Twenty Two: Day Thirty Two

 

Tickled Pink

I’ve watched every single video by John Halcyon Styn in the last week. Quite why he has SO captivated me I’m not sure, but tickle me pink he does & now that I’m saturated, my stalking is officially over.. Shelbel had us round for cake & pink & more yesterday. It was beautiful ❤ Gela blogged about this splendid raw-global list from John McCabe – nice work! Franky G is living in the woods & he is using The Shit Box - something I surely should have known about.. x

          

 

The Living Road

THE LIVING ROAD MOVIE: 

The Alchemical Adventures of Garlic Girl & The Cacao Kid *[+ on the 1st leg of the journey joined by Banana Boy aka Franky G] 

Synopsis: The Living Road is an upcoming documentary about 2 Raw Spirit Festival presenters & curious explorers who embark upon a road trip across North America meeting up with living food friends & communities, sharing talks, enjoying chocolate parties & much more.  

You will learn about Philip’s amazing story of how he went from being a fast food eating, depressed, unhappy 400 lb man to losing nearly 200 lbs in two years, going on a 100 day “juice only” fast and totally reinventing every area of his life. 

Discover Suki’s journey from acne, endometrosis, depression, stupidity, anaphylactic attacks, drugs, and 14 cups of coffee a day to a life of excited Curiosity, vibrant health & mischief making – working as a colon hydrotherapist for over 11 years.

Plus… wonderful adventures, fun, and tips on how to be raw on the road! Due to be released in early 2009. 

Cast:

Garlic Girl = Suki Zoe: Colon Hydrotherapist, SuperLifeFood Nutritionist, writer, photographer, Xocolati creator & raw foodist for over 2 years.

Cacao Kid = Philip McCluskey: A motivational Speaker, raw food coach, writer & 100 % raw foodist for over 2 years who has released nearly 200 lbs.

Sponsors: If you or your company would like a be a sponsor for this film please click here to contact us directly…

 

voice | vicarious

Vicarious: I’m taking a break from London for a while - August 18th & 19th are my last 2 days working with colonics this summer, so catch me while you can. I’m looking for someone amazing to entrust with your beautiful colons – more about that when it’s settled. You’ll be able to share my USA journey to Raw Spirit Festival, Eden Hot Springs & beyond in various ways – more coming very soon. So I’m packing, throwing, clearing & releasing –  amazing how much crap we hold onto (ha), how intoxicating it is to be free of it – deliriously drunk with the idea of Freedom I am. I do love quitting & leaving – scary excited freaky exhausted/exhilarated. There’s a fair bit of packing/moving going around London this week! It’s not the 1st time I’ve cleared out – who knows where this will lead me..

Health Food Junkies is being repeated on More4 on Monday 7th July @ 8.30pm. 1 year after filming I wonder how it’s aged; Liquid Salted Caramels by Artisan du Chocolat are the best non-raw chocolate creation Ever. [A very cheeky discovery - parent's birthday season = usually naughty. Pud & I have also ordered Dedicakeshun AND Quantum - I'll be needing to dust off that yoga mat]; Miss Magic has a new blog – A Good Look; I’m playing around with Etherium Gold, Pink & Red a fair bit this week; The divine Raw Divas are collecting simple recipes from Divas from around the world – they asked me to be involved (at last I found myself in the kitchen with a measuring spoon pinning down quantities!) – check them out; I’m plunging into an Immersion Day with Dr Voice soon – very much looking forward to playing with a new part of my body; the increasingly radiant & creative Claire has been doing something kinda similar with Tomatis Listening Therapy – her results speak loud and clear; does anyone find that yerba maté tea gets cold really quickly – that green tea stays hotter longer? Or is it me?; Cephalopoda heaven – Deadworry @ Etsy; after a plumbing-related shout out to her GI2MR friends I had a reading from Althea. I’m sure not how her plumbing is faring, but her reading was beautiful. She/they said:

“I see a cage around you. This is oxymoronic to me because your energy screams “I’M FREE!” But when a woman is properly cocooned in a relationship where she feels free to be herself, she really flies. And that is what I see happening. The cage comes down, and Suki flies out and your already creative self becomes 200 times more creative”

Bring on the creativity! Interesting – our ideas v our oxumōros. The very word oxymoronic will have me giggling all day.. ✘

 

8 sPin Galling

My lucky much loved Liver/Gallbladder had another yummy flush on the Summer Solstice down in the green rain-soaked fields & sun-dappled woods of Hampshire, 1 full Moon after breaking my 84 day juice feast (no moaning, but) – still a tough rebalancing act. Both Matt & Philip will be writing more about this soon. Physically the flushing is getting easier & easier: I slept deeply for at least an hour, aware of the music playing and my liver chugging like a train, whilst I dreamt that I wanted to go for a thigh stretching walk – I’d had enough of lying around all summer – it’s easy to forget how much work your body is doing if you’re not feeling queasy. It was georgous to have my newly raw sister George, join me on her 2nd flush (who is in serious trouble for getting me hooked on Studio 60). I remain unconvinced about Epsom salts. Yes, they are cheap & turn your insides to liquid, but both of us found ourselves with colon discomfort the day afterwards - blocked up & bloated – if I crave excess food I always know something’s up. And we had no better results than when using colosan. Thank you Jaya Love for your support ∞

While physically easier – emotionally I went into a little spin. Warning: Avoid downloading the results of your spin onto anyone until the flush is over with! I have a beautiful friend overseas who was on the same planet as I this weekend – she spun me out of my over-thinking head right into my heart. How much do we love this cyber world? How strange & delicious that we can affect & be affected so deeply from afar ❤

I’m guessing I’ve had approximately 349 periods in this lifetime. This month was my 2nd pain and medication free period since I was 11 years old (the only pain-free time was 8 yrs ago)! Whether due to liver flushing, raw foods, juice feasting or expanding my consciousness in my abdomen (light, fire, creativity & a vortex kinda thing) – at last something worked THANK YOU!!! ✘

ps. new Tshirts coming & taking orders soon

pps. During my over-zealous attempts to consolidate my iDisk & hard drives during my full moon 7th liver flush I lost ALL my photographs from the last 2 years. all of them. What’s that about then? What is gone is gone..

 

sinews and hollows

OK enough whining about the fat lust & body imbalance – it’s time to focus on my sinews & hollows again. My body is perfect in every way (that will still take a while to really feel true – though I know it’s very cheeky to judge Creation) & I will need to do things differently if I want to feel different. Duh. I was watching/doing some crazy moves on the table over the last couple of weeks – when I realized that NSA energy moves the body into ‘yoga asanas’ which makes sense – because the yogis understood that yoga postures moved energy – we’re just doing it the other way around. I was flicking through ‘Permanent Healing’ by Daniel Condron & found this paragraph:

“The mind also communicates to the body concerning fat and weight problems. The vast majority of people who go on diets gain all the weight back once they go off diet. This is because eliminating food or changing the diet is a physical attempt to remedy what is a mental situation. The thought patterns inducing these people to over-eat, thus creating sluggishness in moving foods through the digestive and eliminatory systems have not changed. In order for there to be permanent healing and a permanent cure, the thought pattern or attitudes must be transformed into a higher state of awareness of what is good for the whole Self“.

I love to experiment [ I caved and went with the epsom salts today - mixed with grapefruit juice they stayed down ok ] with anything I can get my hands on or hear about – my next project is Holosync. But, how much of this is my attempt to ‘control the externals‘ – is my internal dialogue misaligned? Yes, I wish to live to 150 and still be able to touch my toes – but is there a limit to cleansing? Is this all about order & control because my body is not synced with my mind? My spiritual & emotional fields are reciprocating nicely, but I wonder sometimes… xOx

 

Bit

My 6th Liver Flush was deliciously & smoothly accomplished! The next one is on June 18th’ Full Moon – if you’d love to join us & expand the circle, let me know ∞

6 days is not long enough to break a juice feast of extended duration. As much planning needs to go into the breaking as goes into the feasting. It’s a much tighter tightrope to walk & needs dedicated focus. Other than Angela, I’ve not yet met anyone who sailed through this process. You feel simple, strong & happy on the feast – then you’re straight back to a tumultuous Kindergarten when the eating begins. I don’t want only 15% fat in my diet – I’d be more than happy with 90% fat & 10% juice right now!! Chewing is an important gauge for me when it comes to appetite & quantity – it’s easy to forget how much you can pack into a soup/blend/smoothie & over consume. Would I Juice Feast again?  Definitely. Would I do it differently? Absolutely. Check out Shea’s shoots-from-the hip blog about her experience. Another friend wrote:

“At some moments it’s so intense that my entire sense of self is consumed in how bloated I do or don’t feel, how empty/full my tummy is, compulsive need for enemas/colonics, etc. I’m realizing what issues I tackled with success during the feast and which ones I put a really sexy mask on top of (they’re still there and no longer sexy. Getting down to brass tacks). I hear you honey! This is tough, taken me over a month to get feeling a bit better again… Was feeling so alone in my magnified - delusional sense of everything; read your blog this afternoon and felt much comfort.“

Check out: Jont’s Purcell Room gig is tonight!!; Morgaine’s last 5hr lecture is on June 8th - I’m truly impressed with the results she’s getting, so I’ll be going myself to learn from the pro; Juice Master Jason Vale on June 14th; Jo Thomas is offering free Raw coaching – WLIR just featured her amazing story;  OneTaste Collective is playing the Jazz Cafe on 12th June – can’t wait; Funky Raw is now Space of Love Festival 15-18th August in Sussex – a delicious gathering of the scrummiest people; Metamorphosis Events are bringing David Wolfe to London on October 18th; Daniel Vitalis has 8 new YouTube videos on ElixirCrafting – watch them all!!.. Wow, so much going on – a fast growing collective of aware & conscious bee ings; Raw Fairies have launched a new 12 detox delivery package – we need it!! At last unpastuerised GoKombucha in the UK. Much Love, me ❥

 

Thank You Matt

Mr Monarch rendered me speechless for a whole two days by putting me in the Shining the Spotlight hot seat in his Raw Food Real World newsletter. Thank you! Yes, now we’re even.. (Ooops, here’s that pic of you again – taken by Angela atop a camel). It’s always lovely to read Gil’s name in print – getting much deserved credit for the inspired work he’s doing with New York colons, as well as training many more gifted therapists. Matt’s sharing of Gil Jacobs’ & Fred Bisci’s research about cleansing, blood gases & colonics & all the experimenting he’s doing constantly with himself is where it’s at! Matt, you ARE the hotseat. Much love x

 

Capacity

Philip rocked New Horizons truly beautifully – an natural speaker with a heartfelt, inqusitive & grounded approach to physical, emotional & spiritual health. Never have I seen the audience so enrapt & spellbound – thank you all for being with us! Jont & his guitar joined us for a melodic interlude – always a delicious pleasure. I’m taking a break from Camden (I won’t be speaking next Tuesday) for a while to spend time on other projects. Joel + team will continue to inSpire whilst gathering friends together. See Philip’s talk in nuggets on YouTube or in a bigger chunk on Google.

  

The feeling of solidity in my cells is changing. Sometimes dense & heavy, other times warm & comforting. The rebalancing is a delicate process & takes time – weeks rather than days. The extended days of keen awareness in every cell, of mental clarity & timeless-ness are gone. Some fuzzy edges which I had got used to not having, are back – along with an aching back upon waking, rumbling digestion & slightly dopey mornings

+ Last night’s insane experiment involved eating Nutmeg @ 2am. The ‘hangover’ is like that from MDMA + vodka red bull. Never have I woken with such a dehydration headache & my digestive system turning to cement (aka Lot’s Wife) as the day progressed – I can feel the muscles spasms & contractions. The stoned feeling lasts all day –  it’s 10.57pm & I’m still fairly wasted. An interesting choice of things to try at the end of a juicy feast! Later on, after a day of idle hanging out I found this article on Erowid. Hmm, good to know..

         

 

Kapikachu

McCluskey is in the house! Put 2 cyber-tart Mac crack Heads together & what do you get? A media frenzy. I think I’ve officially stopped juice feasting (I’m not ready to chew yet [I had some rocket yesterday - I'd forgotten about getting food stuck in my teeth & how bad it smells when you dig it out later] but my blends are more like baby food & I’m no longer shrinking), so we’re delving into our Juice Feasting experiences & figuring out what makes sense – how to do it better next time, how to BREAK the fast safely & with maximum control. Much more about that soon, when I’ve cooked up some cunningly relevant analogies & dusted off the video camera. I’ve kinda joined the NYC jet-lag time-zone so I feel like I’m here on vacation too.

Yesterday Kezia, Philip & I were blessed with a whole day downloading real live Abraham via Esther Hicks. (This time last month none of us had heard of them). What to say? I’m still assimilating all the beautiful extra-ordinary information & practicing accumulating my vibrational escrow (a new word/concept to me) with 17 seconds of focused alignment: much more study is necessary. Thank you to Hunter for being so damned vulnerable & sensitive = profound.

Experiment of the week: Kapikachu - perhaps not the most opportune time to play with aphrodisiacs, but hey; blended aloe, arame & radicchio are feeling good & the odd squish of durian is much enjoyed. 

Another less-than-loving article about Cacao was brought to my attention today. Hmm – how to respond. Are you feeling great, having fun, seeking transcendent & community led experiences? Show me the banana, sprout or grain which: turned someone raw, solved addiction & depression, unleashed creativity & self-nurture, opens the heart, had you dancing on the table (not obligatory) all night sans-drugs/booze – I could go on. I shall in another post soon. No one is suggesting surviving solely on 1 food group – a balanced 5 a day: green juice, green smoothie, salad, seaweed, oils + a little Love Bean is the way to go. I see the results on the colonic table with Chocolate Jedis all the time – they’re doing great!.. ❤

  

 

Kidneys | Kim Chi (was Einstein any good at doing the dishes?)

My kidneys are seriously letting me know there is something going on. So the theory is, that after the liver & colon have cleansed it’s the Kidney hour. That hour has arrived! Yikes – I’ve never had any sensation from them before, or related back pain, so this is cool. 

Right now I’ll be happy to never see another glass of Okra juice. It was good for a couple of days, but enough is enough. Kim Chi on the other hand – Hallelujah – Living Food takes on new meaning! Blended Kim Chi, strained (messy but worth it) is my most favourite discovery thus far this year. I was awake this morning @ 3am planning my next batch & working out how much I can fit into my kitchen & fridge. I just hope Philip will be helping out with the latest creations –  I’m so excited he is coming!! His visit coincides with Grunde’s visit from Norway – who seems to think this will be the Raw Magna Carta/Jedi Roundtable. Watch this space. My Sauerkraut crock is from Galaxy of Vitality.

SO much is quickening in so many areas, it’s hard to keep up. My life used to feel like a week in a day – now I can pretty much squeeze a day into an hour or so. Massive clarity around boundaries, strength, creativity & objectivity – exciting constantly. I heartily thank every person who makes me crazy & drives me nuts – they push me to really seriously dig deep & find those resources inside of myself I want as daily tools. I Love our Processes! 

Working with different people in different capacities raises issues of who does what, where our skills lie & how to balance energies. Never having been through normal interview processes, sat in ‘meetings’ or understood the whole line-manager system (thanks to Pop for sneaky clarification phone calls on that one) I’m now figuring out grown-up stuff on the fly. I love being around talented people & I’ve been blessed to know many. I see again & again  that there is always a price to pay for genius – which got me thinking this week – was Einstein any good at doing the dishes/washing up? In the bigger scheme of things it may not matter – the world is surely grateful for his gifts, but did he drive his family crazy by forgetting to feed the cat or empty the trash?..

xox

 

bottomless | Day 57

I used to think my glass was 1/2 full. Dah – it’s bottomless! We did two gorgeous liver flushes this week – experimenting with different quantities of Colosan (Ha), Oxypowder, chi machine (double Ha), rebounder (no accidents to report), enemas & a cunningly timed Fiona session. I forgot to even check for stones – the clearing on every level was so massive I barely recognized myself in the mirror. Primarily my ability to absorb & download information feels bottomless – so I’m saturating myself.

So much of everything comes down to timing – I’d seen the books of Abraham by Esther & Jerry Hicks on so many friend’s bookshelves, but hadn’t read one. On Tuesday I borrowed ‘Ask & It Is Given’ on my way to New Horizons! – where Olga walks in & starts talking about them. Then she comes round for a spontaneous late night juice & impromptu brainstorm the following evening – next thing we’re watching them on YouTube till late. I’m not done yet. Last night I watched Martin Luther King several times. If every parent, fairy godmother, aunt, uncle & teacher would k n o w this – the best day ever would be reality for so many more people, today. Even though I knew, & I knew I knew – I felt the knowledge sink hydrate & soak my every cell. I’m traveling at the speed of light. So then I re-watched a new Jasmuheen video from Raw Spirit last year – I’d been there listening live, but now I’m hearing SO much more. Love it. It’s as much fun as you think it is

Joyce – my sister in poop @ the gorgeous LYT in New York is loved by CityWellness; Pure Flavour is the latest on the UK Raw Choc Scene; Morgaine has new dates for her fantastic workshops – she is single handedly turning so many people onto the raw cleansing lifestyle she’ll need an award or two… ❤